Something permanent and waiting

I’ve never been one for belief. Preferring, since I first found words, the question. But you suggest an answer now. Something permanent and waiting. As if there might be gods and fates whispering, a place and time of return. I would know you anywhere. In a room filled, or across vast, empty spaces. Even when I’m not looking for- … I somehow seek toContinue reading “Something permanent and waiting”

When I wanted to stay

I’ve been here. Shoulders squared, bag slung. Do you know how many times I’ve walked away. Often, when I wanted to stay. I left you, once. When I wanted to stay. I’ll leave anyone or anything, don’t you know? It won’t ever be that I love you more. Than Sunday mornings and 4pms. Than sinking in and settling down. TheContinue reading “When I wanted to stay”

This is how you will lose him

You know, don’t you. Have always known. That it won’t be happiness that ends it. You learnt this many years ago. When, in some other loss, some other love, you discovered there’s no seducing sadness. This is how you will lose him. A small or sudden sorrow that separates. No crawling on your belly back. The distance, suddenly, too far. Ruins to most people. But really,Continue reading “This is how you will lose him”

You have been loved

I imagine it’s something like lights turning on all over the world. One by one the illumination, as continents glimmer then glow. I see it as gravity pulling the stars back down. Collective sadness, collecting love. The bright flame of grief making our shared surface deeper. Know this. You have been loved. It’s not dimming, ever. To remember,Continue reading “You have been loved”

Dear –

Dear -, The thing is, I don’t exactly know who I’m writing to here. That dash, it represents the cliff my thoughts sit at the edge of, the screeching halt of my words. The fear, perhaps, that if I let my words topple over today, friendships, peace, will be ruined in the fall. My reputationContinue reading “Dear –”