Down

Your silence hits much harder than any of your words ever did.

And jesus. Your words fucking knocked me down time and time again.

maya

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You don’t let go

You don’t.

The accumulation, the little gatherings. You open your arms wider to them. You hold one more, and close.

You don’t.

Fingers and slipping. Everything that falls through – you never knew how. Always scooping up the love at your feet. Until it is back again, and overflowing.

You don’t let go.

You let.

You let everything stay.

Everything stays.

You remember she said there is always room – it just expands. And you are a chasm now. Wide, wide open, and reaching.

You remember.

She said.

You don’t let go.

(This heart. It holds every thing)

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And here I am again. Forgetting. Or remembering – differently. Something softer, something sweeter always pushing through …