I will not love you less

I will not love you less.

I won’t meet you for that coffee. I will not sit in glaring light and hardened air, the hover of history between us. I will not settle down across from you, nerves tapping tabletops, our eyes never holding.

Pretending I don’t want to pull you close or feel your hand against my thigh.

I will not play with sanity, or wash this clean. I don’t have that artifice in me, or your ability to skim over the storm and swell of our wild, wide sea.

I could not bear the loss so casually, the diminishing of what we used to be. You cannot, must not ask that of me. Not when I have loved you so desperately. Not when you have been my life’s fatality (love should never die unhurriedly).

I will not – not ever – love you less, or with any less of me.

I will not love you less by JR Bublitz

“And somehow the memory of how complete we used to be – is keeping me from you.”

~ If I Ever Say I’m Over You by John Bucchino

Published by Eidyia

I am only three things for sure - an Atheist, a Feminist, and a Writer - one who obsesses over the grand themes of love, memory and connection.

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